today ..

ari ni isi borg kuates .. nk apply kuates .. cuz aku nk idop aman & damai .. supaye aku dpt berdikari .. supaye aku dpt blaja masak .. supaye aku dpt col ibu n nangeh2 cuz lapar .. supaye ibu n abah bley melawat aku ble2 mase tnpe perlu pk perasaan org len .. supaye aku dpt nari2 naked kat hall .. hu3 .. aku apply kuates dgn harapn dptla aku menenangkan ati aku ni .. xpyh lg menghadap muke org yg verrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyy annoying .. supaye aku bley tgok tb tanpe pk org len .. mudah2an dipercepatkan ..
betolll .. aku suke bersendirian .. aku suke wat apepon sorg2 .. kawan bek aku yg setakat ni aku bley wat pepon same2 adala adik aku .. nak tengking,nak majok,nak mengamok,tp kitorg ttp cool .. so nnti,bleyla aku ajak adik aku lepak2 dgn aku bler cuti .. mesti bezkan .. bley g jln2 sme .. plg bez,suke tgok abah gelabah tepon tiap2 waktu tnye kitorg mamam pe,watpe etc .. bezzzzznyerrrr .. can't wait la ..

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aku benci bdk ni .. aku bnci dia yg tak pandai nak adapt care idop berkawan .. aku rase di seswai dok dalam hutan xde org kawan dgn monyet ..

betulkah aku?

JULAI

seronok didampingi - well,betol la kot .. tp kdg2 rase nak sndiri2 jer .. hu3 .. ble lalink ckp nak hantar gi mane2,aku kdg2 kerek gak,ckp nak pegi sendiri tp aku tau aku ni malaz sgt2 nak menapak sorg2 ..

banyak berahsia dan sukar dimengerti ( terutama lelaki )- yup! ada kdg2 kite nak hal tu kter je yg simpan .. kire nak privacy la ..

agak pendiam kecuali diransang -betol!!! aku ni jenis malaz nak bercakap .. tp ble da jmpe kwn2,hmm .. ingt lg mase skool dlu di cop sebagai geng bermasalah dgn bdk2 jantan yg perasan bagos .. geli aku! mcm muke bagos sgt .. mcm cerdik sgt .. (tbe2 rndu kat izyan,tqah n utieh-guys,adakah aku yg menjauhkan diri atau korg yg semakin jaoh)

ada harga dan maruah diri -100% .. n my family is my pride! usik family aku,siaplah ..

tidak suka menyusahkan orang lain tetapi tidak marah jika disusahkan -errr .. lalink,betol ke? hu3

mudah dipujuk dan bersikap lurus -a'ah .. lalink pggl aku c luros bendol .. aku pon percaya batak la ape dia ckp .. pdhal dia tipu jer ..

sangat menjaga hati orang lain -kih3 ..

sangat peramah -td kate pendiam .. (?)

emosi sangat mendalam tetapi mudah terluka hati dan lambat pulih -yup3333x .. aku ni sensitif .. mudah menangis .. emo la tu ..

berjiwa sentimental -1000 thon xkan mungkin? sentimentalkah aku?

kurang berdendam -ni ye la kot .. aku suke let go .. xsuke simpan ..

mudah memaafkan tetapi sukar melupakan -tnyelah sape2 yg aku rapat ..

tidak suka benda remeh temeh -wat saket paler je ..

membimbing cara fizikal dan mental -adik2 aku la tu ..

sangat peka, caring dan mengasihi serta penyayang -wawawaa ..

layanan serupa kepada semua orang -everybody deserves it .. ever1 is equal ..

tinggi daya simpati -mmg la .. aku tak boleh tgok bdk susah .. org tua susah ..

pemerhatian yang tajam -lalink selalu jd mangse ..

suka menilai orang lain dengan pemerhatian -betol! 1st impression aku slalu silap ..

mudah dan rajin belajar -tuhan je yg tau ..

suka muhasabah diri -ni pon .. tuhan je yg tau

suka mengenang peristiwa atau kawan lama -Naw fu d'art .. love u ol

suka mendiamkan diri dan duduk di rumah -rimas kat luar ..

suka tunggu kawan tapi tak cari kawan -da kate xperamah ..

tak agresif kecuali terpaksa .. da kate bler di ransang ..

lemah dari kesihatan bahagian perut -da tu apendik aku ni ape cer? siap ada parot tebok bagai ..

mudah menjadi gemuk jika tak dikawal -sgt3333 la betol!! pas apendik,amek ko!

minta disayangi -abg syg syg x? tipikal ayat simpati ble wat salah .. muntah siler ..

terlalu mengambil berat -aku akak n anak yg bek .. x cayer tanye aku ..

rajin dalam membuat kerja- wawawawawa ..

hmmm .. *sigh*

baru je nak mengenali kak lynn n kak nor da dorg kene transfer unit .. sdey la .. due2 bek dgn aku .. even aku maseh baru lg kat cni but they treat me nicely .. i feel comfortable when i'm with them .. i hope this bond will never fade away .. never ..

well,dis week aku mcm lemau cket .. cume today i feel more better .. dunno y .. but i'm still perform my duty .. hu3 .. jgn ingt aku mlz tau ..

tibe2 teringt kat ibu n abah .. yeah,even aku da besar gabak,but still aku manje dgn dorg .. even aku da xpndai nak show manje tu tp ble ada part2 yg aku rase stress,aku slalu ingt kat dorg .. bkn time sng aku x ingt .. tp ble time susah,time stress, ble ingt kat dorg aku jd insaf (walaupon jap .. hu3) .. aku teringat how hard 4 them to raise up me n my siblings .. the hardest time 4 us .. kdg2 ngalir airmate ble ingt how strong they r to overcome all the obstacles in dis life .. aku ingt mcmane kuatnye abah mengharungi segalanye n tibe abg aku pergi menghadap illahi,betape aku lihat airmatenye mengalir di saat nak kucop abg wat kali terakhir .. i'll alwaz remember dat .. xkan pernah lupe .. never! betape lemahnye abah time 2 apabila khlgn hero sulongnye yg sentiase menjadi harapannya untuk menjage adik2nya yg bley tahan byk kerenahnye ni .. n aku xkan lupe abah beristighfar byk kali sambil memegang kuat stereng kereta apabila my lalink menyampaikan berita pemergian abg (aku dlm ambulans dgn abg,my lalink follow blkg) .. ni adik aku yg citer ..

n ibu? xpyh nak ckpla,ibu pengsan byk kali .. smpaikan aku riso sgt2 dgn dia ..

"anak zan tu abg,yg zan kandung 9 bulan"

aku ingt lg ape ibu ckp kat abah dlm kete once dia tau abg da xde ..

"ye,abg tau .. tp zan jgn mcm ni"

tuhan .. aku menjadi anak sulung serta merta ..

xtaula nape aku nak cter plak pasal ibu n abah .. maybe aku rindu kot .. hu3 ..

ish .. da besar gabak nk rndu2 lg .. hu3 ..

i HaTe U sO MucH,LaLiNk ..

I hate you so much,

yet i yern to feel your touch.

I hate the way you talk to me,

think of how great we could be.

I hate the way you act with friends,

Yet you stay real cool,

and secretley want to hold my hand.

But most of all this hate is true,

I hate the way you make me love you.

we have a big fight .. as (ass?) usual,i started it 1st .. n he is juz like b4-stay cool n remain silence .. i feel sh*t!! and that i feel gud 4 nothing .. i dunno y i have to be so harsh 2 him but i think i want a lil'bit of freedom .. but he denies my rights! how i wish i could be an invisible human .. so that i can runaway from this suck situation ..

LoVE iS ..

Love is chocolate

Love is sweets and honey

Love is sometimes for your heart

Love is sometimes for the money

Love is passionate

Love is blind

Love is destined

Love is cruel and kind

Love is forever

Love is for a night

Love is fading

Love is at first sight

Love is unrequited

Love is for another

Love is not returned

Love is not to be smothered

Love is dangerous

Love is right

Love is wrong

Love is a fight

Love is complicated

Love is here and there

Love is in you and me

Love is everywhere

Love is broken

Love is true

Love is for me

Love is for you

DePrEsSiON ..

Depression is the sorrow in your heart ..

Depression is the feeling of being alone ..

Depression is knowing your best isn’t enough ..

Depression is knowing no one cares if your dead or alive ..

Depression is the hate and anger you get when life is too hard ..

Depression is when you feel like the worlds on your shoulders ..

Depression is the feeling that you get when you get

when you know that what ever you do no one cares and it doesn’t matter ..

Depression is knowing when you tried tried and tried again but failed ..

Depression hits hard and harder every day ..

Depression is the feeling of dying slowly every day ..